How have my tastes, authorities and idols changed since I was just a kid?

By Paula SZCZYPCZYK (1995), LOK Kraków/Poland

Somewhere in the past we were all children. You may not believe it when you look at some adults but that is the fact we can’t deny! But it only proves that so many things have changed from that time.

What was it all like…? The retrospection!

How many of us – girls -  didn’t scream: “ MOM! I want to be a princess!”? Almost none! And what about you boys? Didn’t you want to be soldiers, racing drivers or firefighters? We all had dreams about our future jobs… but did you achieve your targets?

Such an innocent kid I was...

Such an innocent kid I was! ;-)

And what about our heros? In childhood many of us considered our parents as the most amazing people on Earth and so did I. They were everything to us but thoroughout the years we started to create a big gap between us and them. Of course, they are still very important but what I mean is that while growing up we became more independent.

The next thing? Taste!

Colorful bracelets...

Oh, those colorful bracelets…

When we were 5 years old our parents decided for us what we should wear, eat, what we should watch or listen to. And to be honest – we didin’t mind it. Within years each of us started to create their own taste. Mass media reached us with its big, tempting hand. Commercials started to influence our unformed opinions. Fashion started to be something really important. It made us – girls – want to look pretty and attractive so we started to wear shiny skirts and lots of jewellery. Young, good-looking singers were our idols – my idols. Britney Spears or Polish – Doda! That was it! We tried to look like them, we danced to their music… Almost all of my schoolmates liked the same things… and then a big question came.

What’s going on? Why don’t I enjoy things I used to like?

When I went to junior high school I was about 13 years old and I thought: “Hey, Paula! What are you doing?! Does it all make sense? You’re better than that!” And I became more interested in stuff a bit more complicated than pop music and plastic bracelets. I started listening to different kinds of music and developing their history. Not only at this point did things change but also my clothes became more balanced since that time and I’ve found my own style. I didn’t have to copy stars from television anymore! I became more concious – mass media stopped playing such a big role in my life. Actually – I’ve stopped watching TV. I became able to notice that there were so  many more valuable things than appearance and having fun all the time. I was looking for something deeper in life because things I was going through back then were pretty superficial and shallow.

That also brings other changes. My authorities have changed as well. Now I don’t judge people so easily and the ones who impress me can be great examples not only in appearance but also (actually mainly) in behaving. To be honest – I haven’t found anyone like that yet. Unfortunately!

Me with a waxwork of a big musical inspiration – Jimi Hendrix

But I keep on searching and while doing it – I find many inspiring things which develop me on many levels. I find interesting creative people like musicians and writers.

It’s obvoius that when we grow up, everything about us changes. We’re curious about the world so we search and discover. All things what we go through make us evolve and develop. We have to be open-minded so we could fully experience different stuff but we should also remember about our own tastes. If we don’t  – we can lose ourselves in a whirl of other people’s beliefs.

What about you? How have you changed and why? Or maybe you’re the same person you were 10 years ago…?